I did a search looking for a particular post I’d written here long ago, but stumbled instead on to this one. Much like it always seems that when you open your Bible, you always end up opening to just the perfect verse to speak to you where you are – this post was a gift to my heart and mind.
Building on my prayer and meditation regarding last week’s post – I have been contemplating a page in the “From God’s Words to a Woman’s Heart” devotional titled “You Have Purpose.”
I, like so many women probably would, thought immediately “my purpose in God’s eyes is to be a wife and a mother. A caretaker and a supporting character in the stories of my family members.” That must be my purpose, because trying to move beyond that hasn’t resulted in any forward motion in years.
BUT WAIT – there was that post from the past saying BUT WAIT!
For years, YEARS AND YEARS, I had struggled and pushed for some sort of promotion – in my job, in my finances, in my thinking… IN ANYTHING.
Nothing had really come. I had felt so helpless and stuck trying to make what I wanted to happen come to pass.
Then BOOM – I tried something different, something a little scary . We changed our plans from searching for a house in the city, and trying for a promotion within my then-employer; to searching for a house and a better job in my hometown. Doors FLEW open, opportunities for employment were suddenly abundant and generous. The perfect home at the perfect price presented itself practically wrapped up in a bow. Every piece of the puzzle seemed to fit – custom designed for our family’s needs at that exact moment.
For over a year I had felt the calling in my heart to return home – but my pride kept me from listening, from hearing God’s direction for my life. So I met with only closed doors and lack of opportunity. There was nothing there to be offered for me – my gifts waited elsewhere for me to find when I could follow the plan of His purpose for me.
I find myself in a similar situation now – as our family comes into another season of change, I see now that I must be trying once again to force open a door of opportunity that is not meant for me. I know from my own experience, written right there for all to see in that post, that fighting against His plan won’t work. It leads to frustration and stagnation and wasted time and effort.
So I pray today on the verse provided in the devotional, PSALM 13:8:
“The Lord will fulfill His purpose for me; your steadfast love, O Lord, endures forever. Do not forsake the work of your hands.”